i went for my first date with claris to the zoo last sunday, the 2nd of aug and it was really fun.... good times with a great girl.... i rarely go on dates so this was great...

being with her rekindles a feelign ive not felt in a while... even sam says i sound different now, which is a good thing...

i once posted abt a bob marley song, is this love, when i just broke up with janice, my ex... i posted that in hopes of trying to get her back... i listened to the song today and i felt like posting abt it again because it expresses how im feeling right now abt claris....

I want to love you
I want to love and treat you right
I want to love you, everyday and every night

i want things to work out.... i guess ill have to take things slow, just like at kokomo..... another song by the beach boys....

what to do.... fuck, why do i have to be so akaward around them...

drinking is my only solace to a night i made an idiot of myself....

fuck this shit....

the skate tour with the boys was great.... 6 guys in a car, going from spot to spot and just having fun, filiming and getting photos... really good times with good friends, going to bukit batok, lakeside, kovan and amk....

but ssing my friends skate has made me realise how much they have progressed over time....

sam: LTPs resident switch master, from fucking up left ankle to a guy who cant skate anything not switch...

alvin: ATV, skating anything and everything.... when i first knew him he could only do boardslides and noselsides on curbs, now the fucker can match me trick for trick on a mini ramp... good diversity and skates anything in front of him....

jerreld: still has one of the cleanest and most consistent flips among any of us... hes mellowed out a lot, but still a great guy to qoute borat lines with....

jeff: fearless as fuck... hes got his ollies and pop shove its on lock...

sam (bb): always a joy to hang with with his random one-liners and strange sense of humour.... he mellowed out alot too but but his half cab heels are still popped and proper...

me: im just happy to skate with good friends who are willing to put up with my last trick requests, even if i do take one too many tries at stuff...


skate tours like these really revive my hinger for skating, and makes me feel yound again... it reminds me of a simpler time when i didnt work, and skating was my only concern.... being able to get something filmed or photograpped is a great accomplishment for me because these days i hardly get anything done... bringing old tricks to new spots or new trick to old spots, the situation is never the same and it reminds me how fun skating should be...

great fun lets do this again soon guys....

schools lame... when i came to uni i expected it to be full of mature thinking young adults... instead all i see is a bunch of immature fucks who cant tell the difference between a joke and seriousness.... jesus fucking christ its shit like this that really grinds my fucking gears...

nobody needs this bullshit in their life, and i got better things to do with my life than take this from a bunch of cry baby bitches... if you got a fucking problem with me, say it to my fucking face rather than hide behind a girl whose nice and sweet to talk trash about me.... if you look up the word pathetic in the dictionary, you would see the faces of these ppl....

fuck this pretentious bull shit....

i talked to sam today and he told me that alvin felt like skating... ive felt the same way especially recently when work is beging to take over skateboarding...

thinking about it, i find it impossible to quit skating forever... all over my home im surrounded with all things skateboarding, like its music, magazines, decks, videos and clothing... i could never quit skating, the love for it is just too great....

besides what else could i do if i quit....

yeah im finally 21... i worked on my birthday but i got to party with the boys (tris, gwao and my bro) on sunday so that was tight as hell... beers, waterfall, more beer, champagne, plus i got to sing at acid with my brother.... that was fucking cool....

overall a great birthday week...

monday: new deck, trucks and wheels

wednesday: steak dinner and brownies with my family

thursday: work i guess

friday: 96% for my english mid term, and did the photoshoot for mondays straits times (250607)

saturday: met some great customers, and 1 even bought me a guinness draught... life is sweet....

sunday: carls jr dinner, beers at alley bar, champagne and more beer with the guys... great wallet from gwao for my birthday....

its been a great 21st birthday and all i have to say is YING BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!


but on the flip side im working at acid bar way too hard for my own good... my back is killing me and i get too tired to skate, which is wack... goddamn we need a full timer....

when i first started skating around 5 years back, i didnt really have a care... i could skate everyday and the only thing that could stop me was injuries or rain, and even when it rained we found some spot to skate...

looking back now it makes me realise how much i took skateboarding for granted... nowadays i cant go out and skate even if i wanted to, because of school and work... i cant just ditch my job and come up with an excuse just to go skate...

the clip below is about andrew reynolds bs flipping wallenberg, and its sick as hell...



skate while you can

The guys (Alvin and Sam) and I got the boxes done at SP for the Skate Club... it was cool doing it with them, since we rarely hang out these days....

Mid terms this week, studying hard, and hardly studying...

And i dont know what I did to mislead you, and it was never intentional....

Good ideas:
Working and studying

Bad Ideas:
Finishing a bottle of vodka between 2 ppl in 30 min or less....

After 1 month of consideration, I moved down to work at Acid Bar... Same company as Rouge just different outlet... Its good because I get to pursue my passion, bartending there... I now work 4 days a week, from wed till saturday...

working and schooling takes a lot of out me, so much that I can barely spend times with my friends... Its not that I dont want to spend time with them and skate, but the truth is that bills need to be paid, and work is the source of money...

wow apparently people read this page of crap...

well, i cut my left index finger really badly at work last friday... basically the glass was cracked already, then when i was cleaning the rim, the glass shattered and glass went right in... i couldnt work the following day thanks to needing to get 5 stiches from the doctor...

as it turns out ppl can be concerned about my life, i should probably do something, but im already in my payjamas...

My life as a uni undergrad starts tmr, and Im psyched... work is no longer my life...

skating has beaten the crap out of my body.... my back is wack, palms scraped up bad, feet are sore and i got a huge bump on my elbow....

this is skateboarding....

Once again, life has screwed me over... I finally get to work in the bar, but because I start school in early May, some guy who has been at Rouge 2 days as a floor staff gets to work in the bar... I cant fucking believe it, I mean whatever happened to paying your dues and waiting your turn in line.... Fuck man, Rouge has screwed me over twice already, first with them hiring an incompetent bartender who i could easily outdo, and next they put the new guy in the bar after 2 fucking days.... time is really not on my side, and luck isant as well...

At least my brother and I are starting up a business, and i wont have to deal with a company continually screwing me over forever....

Nice guys finish last, and the world never recognises the hard working SOB....

My kickflip is lost, I am working in a dead end job, where some incompetent fool is working at the position I have patiently waited in line for... My life is in the shitter right now, and the only thing I look forward to is starting my uni life at SIM...
My drinking is way up, my skating sucks, no love in my life...

There you have it, my life...

Heres whats good with my life:

-Tips in hand
-Drinks from customers
-Getting a free pack of smokes

So heres to you, a poem:

I Hope

I hope he bring you lots of misery
Boatloads of sleepless nights
A unfufilling relationship
Plenty of crap

I deserve better
Your damn loss
Sooner or later
Your going to be the last thing on my mind


I found out some really cool stuff today... Lifes cool, in that you will meet the right people at the right time, to tell you the things that you need to hear.... Stuff that will make sense to you and get you out of the hole that you are in...
Also, the stuff that you once thought were important, turn out to be completely unimportant at the end of the day... Wise words from a good friend, John Molina...

Heres what didnt work today:
- Triple shot of scotch whiskey
- The New Singapore Sling (Gin, Apple flavoured Vodka, Absinthe, Orange Juice laced with Chivas Whiskey)
- A really strong Screwdriver (Made with cheap Russian Vodka)
- A can of Guiness Draught

Heres the Sound Garden Black Hole Sun video... This is what modern music videos lack, an edge, creepiness, acid-trip like visuals and haunting lyrics....

Heres what grinds my gears:
- Hinder and that damn Lips of an Angel Song (where I work, the band is forced to play it on a daily basis.... Listen to the lyrics, they suck like hell...)
- People who dont seed in Bit Torrent (for Gods Sake let me have my porn!!)
- Teenage Dramas and reality shows (Falcon Beach, One tree hill, Laguna beach, you know the crap)

Heres what gets me psyched:
- Pink Floyd (so influential, a piece of musical art, you have to hear each album as a whole to experience its genius)
- Edinger Beer (light, smooth, with plenty of character, lots to love)
- My little sister at Rouge Outdoors, Majella (she is so fun to bully and shes the little sister my brother and i wish we had...)
- Clerks (Kevin Smith is a genius, speaking of all the shit that people in the service industry put up with on a daily basis)

My current favourite song is Black Hole Sun by the now defunct Sound Garden, as they have now become Audioslave.... Well anything the John Molina and Kruger play at Rouge, where i work is good, but this song is tops on my list right now... i would publish the lyrics if only the formatting would come out right but it has not...

Perhaps its the poetry of the words that draws me to the song, or the stonned out voice of chris cornell, or maybe the bleak and dark imagery it paints... whatever it is, it seems to express how i feel about my life right now...

Heres what Grind My Gears:
- People who say that they love the music of (insert pop icon who is overplayed on local radio, like Pussy Cat Dolls or any of that crap)... Whats the big fucking appeal of that kind of music?? The only this the group has going for it is a deep pounding baseline in their songs, plenty of big-shot cameos, sexually suggestive lyrics and videos, and hot girls.... dont get me wrong here, im not gay and i love hot girls, but whats the appeal?? The songs have no meaning, and encourages young girls to be sluts... And for gods sake, there is only 1 singer in the group, the rest are just filler.... What ever happened to meaningful lyrics thatcarried a certain poetry about them?? I though good music was more than having a synthesizer do all the work for you...

You know what really grinds my gears??

-Sarong Party Girls (SPGs)
-Local Radio
-Westerners who come to Singapore thinking they are the shit
-People who dont tip
-Absolut Vodka
-People not being straight forward

But heres the stuff that doesnt grind my gears:

-Good times with good friends (Booze included)
-Skateboarding
-Family
-Giving Up Smoking (6 days and counting)
-A good book

I noticed that whenever we look at our lives, we always seem to focus on the "bad" stuff... Like how much we hate our jobs, how life cheats you time and time again, how you are being ripped off everytime you drink at a club, or how you feel like nobody notices you... But then again, theres plenty in life to be thankful for... Im not suggesting the "look on the bright side" crap, but rather noticing that there are many things going your way in life... Not like ignore the bad stuff, but simply noticing the stuff that you didnt know was good...

"You know what? I may have a (insert bad thing in life), but then again, I have a (insert good thing) going on for me..."

Something to that effect... Fuck postiive thinking, this is realising whats so in your life...